Do you know what it’s like to lose the love of your life? Because I do. I hate being such a sensitive guy sometimes. Of course, “all girls love a sensitive guy” but when this happens, it’s the WORST. I miss everything, I miss meeting her for the first time and going bowling, it was awkward but it felt right. I miss when I went to her house for the first time, and almost having my heart drop out my ass when she put her head on my shoulder. I miss the snowstorm, and when she came over and spent the night while my parents weren’t home, we had our first kiss that night, January 19th was the day. I miss wrestling with her because she always tried to provoke me, I miss playing the wii with her because we didn’t know what to do when I came over because we were so awkward and didn’t know what to do. I miss hanging out in her room and freaking out because she kept her door shut, but she kept telling me “My Mom doesn’t care! Don’t worry babe!”, I miss her on the computer and playing “Call Me Maybe” while she was getting ready and thinking it was the stupidest song ever. I miss her stupid jokes that weren’t funny and when I didn’t laugh she’d be like, “No? Okay….”. I miss going to her house after work and just laying down not doing anything because all I needed was to be with her and it made my nights a million times better. I miss her coming over every single day to a point where my Mom and Sister go used to it. I miss her laugh so much, she thought it was so ugly, but it was the cutest thing I ever heard. I miss her voice. I miss opening up to her in my car. I miss days upon days of doing absolutely nothing with eachother. I miss Wal-Mart dates. I miss holding her hand while driving. I miss meeting her Dad for the first time and refusing to kiss her in front of him which got me brownie points because he respected that. I miss BBQs with her family. I miss her niece, and how she told me she hasn’t acted like that around any other guys. I miss her not being able to dance. I miss taking her to her Orthodontist appointments. I miss camping with her, and the wind almost knocking our tent over. I miss the ocean with her, and how she was nervous about being able to sleep together even though my Mom didn’t care. I miss her being at my house during the thunder/lightning storm and then going to look for more of it. I miss April 20th, 2012. I miss our first pictures together. I miss her surprising me with Incubus tickets on our 6 months. I miss meeting Passion with you because it was cute how excited you were. I can go on for literally months on everything. I know we are two completely different people but that’s what brought us closer. I know that we were far away but we found a way to make it happen. I know that whoever reads this is going to think I’m stupid. But we are not over, nothing is final with us. We might need some time, I don’t know how much but I’ll know when it’s right. Knowing how the situation is playing out right now, but I’m praying that things will work out because she is a blessing. And she may not think that she deserves me, but we deserve eachother I know it. I don’t want her to feel hopeless and have to hurt herself. I know that I can be her support system.